One More

One more step closer and life may begin
or end in that matter
Lose or Win?
One more inch closer and time may just pause
or go on forever
Effect or cause?
One more foot over and you just might fly
What happens to jumpers
Dead or alive?
One more push harder and you may succeed
or lose all your faith
Heal or Bleed?
One more wish granted, have all you desire
Or drown in your greed
Water or Fire?
One more move taken, you might get there first
or trip over yourself
Lucky or Cursed?
One more word spoken, you might make your point
Will anyone listen
Relieved or Annoyed?
One more road traveled, to wherever you say
A dead end approaches
Proceed or Delay?

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Dusk descends and dawn comes clear
I start to shiver, I know you are near
Although I'm alone, your presence seeps through
and all my attention is planted on you
The candles blow out, the smoke starts to dance
The music you make puts my heart in a trance
I'm holding on so I don't float away
My obsession is something words don't have to say
I'm dying to have you, I'm living for love
This is something I have no control of
I can't do a thing but I don't really mind
At the end of your rainbow who knows what I'll find
The sun will awaken and open her eyes
The voices inside start to comprimise
But you'll still be my motive, my missing half
I'll find you when the clouds clear my path
There will be no more excuses for us to sever
Destiny wants us to be together
So I'll be patient and learn how to wait
Keep my fingers crossed and depend all on fate

Quiet

I like the quiet, it soothes my soul
and tells me things that no one else knows
Silence is pleasure, no one to impress
When there's no pressure to speak
that's when I like it best
I'm breathing with rhythm
the stress floats away
It's easy to manage when there's nothing to say
Time holds no purpose
the seconds just pass
I like the quiet
there's no questions to ask

Black Rose

The smell of death approaches

as I walk across the stones

I'm looking for your name

and I find you all alone



Quiet in your grave

I couldn't hear a sound

Cannot say a word at all

when you're buried in the ground



All I had to say was

"May you rest in peace"

and took out from behind my back

and gift for your decease



A black rose to keep you company

in your deep black darkened hole

black just like the darkness

to decorate your home

Another Day and Night in Hell

I remember this too well
Another day and night in Hell
Where fire can't be stopped by rain
In this nightmare I remain
Trapped by fire surrounding the skies
The orange and yellow take over my eyes
Soon my skin will be no more
My bones will shudder and fall to the floor
There's only one way out and it's covered with bricks
The stench of death is making me sick
I will not plead and start to cry
I am in Hell and I think I know why
I am destined to pain
My purpose is this
I've been put on this earth
to barely exist
But I'd rather burn in Hell
than be a slave
I'll find serenity
alone in my grave

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If I were insane

I would slice her fat body

the way a butcher handles cold cuts

and serve her to everyone I hate

and with a smile on my face I'd say

"Bon Appetit"

There'd be enough for 3rds

A great way to eat.

Runaway

Warped in watercolors

Tied in rainbow rope
Flying on the smiling sun
of everlasting hope

I found a way out of here
It breathes beneath the clouds
It's higher than the buildings tall
and never touches ground

Runaway to rainbowland
you must be curious to see
Swallow all that's in your hand
and runaway with me

War

There's a war in my head
I live for the bruise
One side will die
The other will lose
When the gunshots are fired
I blink my eyes
And when I am smiling
Somebody dies

I'm Done

You harass my existance
and mock my persistance
My candor for instance
makes you uneasy on end
Looks are deceiving
I've jumped into believing
that you are the real thing
My conterfeit friend
you laugh and you smile
make jokes for a while
but you're in denial
if you say you don't care
I'll tell you something
if this all meant nothing
At least you have left me
a lot more aware
I'm tired of the guessing
This routine of stressing
I'll send you my blessing
for whatever may come
After all we have been through
this cannot continue
There's no good left in you
It's over, I'm done!

Numb

You broke my heart again my friend

my tears have turned to stone 

The more the truth is setting in 

The more I feel alone.

How much longer can I take this pain 

I'm so used to being dumb 

I want to love you all I can 

but right now my heart is numb.

Naked

I am naked
all eyes are on me
Stripped down to nothing
for the whole world to see
my ugly body
rigid and frail
Fat in some places
permanent pale
Naked...
This world is vicious
Shallow and blind
Judging me while staring at my behind
Eyes roaming
up and then down
I have big hips
but my breasts are round
Immature comments around they fly
But no one dares to look into my eyes
They didn't mind yesterday
when I wasn't exposed
They were fine individuals
when I was clothed
Now I'm naked and it's cold where I stand
Right about now I wish
I was sinking in sand
I'm naked but still I don't understand
what the fuss is about
I thought that beauty was both
inside and out

The eye of the Storm

I'm in the eye of the storm

So quiet, so calm

The sun is out and the debris is gone

But i know it will all just start up again

I know it will hurt me but I just don't know when

I told you i love you but you're making me wait

Your smile is all i can anticipate

The clouds hover upon me just waiting to cry

It's dangerous to be here

right in the storm's eye

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Like a sailboat sailing past
time is ticking way too fast
Over waves that never rest
Deep blue seas that look their best
Without a thought of how it came
I heard the thunder call my name
It was dark and I was cold
then the lightning showed me where to go
With the rain in my eyes it was hard to steer
But all in time I'm finally here

Lost

I'm completely lost.
I know where I am but I'm lost in the moment. The moment seems to last so long. The longer it lasts, the longer I'm lost inside my mind. I lost my mind.
Don't mind me, I'm just lost.
I'm in love.
Completely lost in love
I might never be found again.

Winter

It burns me thoroughly, the winter air against my skin

As I stand outside it feels like home

The sky is opaque just like my soul

But it's okay. I don't want to go inside

It comes every year

Every Winter, colder than the last

But this time it feels different

Comforting, like a destined freeze of doom

So quite, so strong

It's a blizzard inside of me and it fills me up, helps me breathe

Living cold,I belong here

It is not the end, but a cold, cruel beginning

I enjoy the frostbite

making me ice

making me solid

Frozen

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I hurt myself again
The pain makes me stronger
The knife against my skin
I don't feel helpless any longer
I doubt myself again
But doubting makes me smarter
If I think worthless of myself
it will make me work much harder
I'm worried for myself again
The pity makes me wonder
If I feel sorry for myself
I'll let the wave just pull me under
I'm alone with myself again
The silence is so peaceful
I close my eyes then open
and I'm at one with all you people

Not Guilty

I plead not guilty, believe it or not

Telling you i'm innocent is all the

proof that I've got

The other side is more potent and they rub it in my face

I don't even belong in this place!

I am not a criminal and I'm not in denial

What do I say when the put me on trial?

It's purgatory, my life

I am judged everyday

Today I'm the culprit

Tomorrow they'll pay

Damaged

Tears of blood are falling down from my tortured eyes

One by one they're growing into puddles of my cries

The blood just keeps on dripping, floating all around

I can see my reflection through the red on the ground

I can see right through me but I don't even care

The blood has my attention, all I can do is stare

I cannot move a muscle, I'm in a little trance

Can't see beyond the dark red floor even if I had the chance

I'm impressed with its extravagance, the way it slowly slides

Intriguing how it captures me and looks into my eyes

Lesson Learned

The whole house is shaking

My bones are slowly breaking

My head's explosive aching

is driving me insane

My lungs are filled with poison

Inviting all the noise in

All bloodshot are my eyes

and how heavy is my brain

My skin is slowly burning

A painful way of learning

The lesson you're exerting

Hurts increasingly

The thought of dissolution

Making me pollution

This is no solution

But it is my destiny

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Today if I cried nobody would notice because it's raining.
As if the world knew I needed to cry and sent me the clouds over my head
The rain just falls off my cheek into the puddles on the floor

But tomorrow when the sun comes the whole world will see my pain...

I'm afraid to lose myself
I'm afraid to lose everything we have
These drops of rain are like needles pricking the life out of me
When the sun comes out I'm going to burn alone